I'm going through it now, and I have to say (despite how pretentious it sounds), I'm the most artistically satisfied I've ever been. It's definitely different to how you feel when you're simply 'tackling the next song', where you always want it to be better, or showcase another aspect of your writing, or something. That's good stuff, I'm not saying it isn't. That's a great feeling, too.
This is like.....hmm, I guess if you were to give all your songs a rating based simply on how 'good' they were in some sort of inarticulably global way, you know the one you're working on is the highest score of them all, and it's not even finished yet. I feel all fired up about it, can't stop having ideas and recording them and adding to the song.
This feeling is all well and good, but I started this song about a year ago, kind of knowing it was the best thing I'd ever done. Several people who heard it agreed it was, one, my closest friend, even said, "that's where you want to be". But I was starting to go through some sort of musical depression, and I just couldn't write anything anymore, and I stopped playing the guitar for weeks and months at a time (that's another subject I could bore you about, too). I didn't have what it took to finish it off back then, so it's sat on the shelf for a long time. That was pretty infuriating.
Finishing this will feel like a combination of making a huge direction and quality change as far as my writing goes, and essentially breaking a year-long bout of writer's block (I say essentially because I posted a viedo of half a song I wrote about a month ago, but half a song doesn't count as breaking writer's block; it's another example of its symptoms!)
So, I've not felt like this about anything I've written before. I would assume I never hit this peak again. In fact, I would almost bet my life on it. Life is generally pretty shit, and you can't get this kind of intellectual satisfaction very often, or we'd essentially be a happy people. I certainly hope I do, but I'll assume not.
Am I unique in this? Has anyone else had this crystaline certainty about something they've written/done? I'd assume I'm not unique by any stretch of the imagination. Worth discussing?
Not quite to the same extent, where I've been recording something and thinking, "This is the best thing I've ever done," exactly, but I definitely have had a few moments (especially the last few things I wrote) where I'm sitting there recording it and feeling very satisfied with the writing, and that while I'm working on it I'll be thinking that I'm really happy with it and it's where I want to be going artistically, etc.
It's a nice feeling - it's like, "Hey, suddenly I feel like a legit artist, because I'm proud of this and I'd totally listen to it if it was someone else's work."